game

You talk to me
You speak with me
Don't sink before you rise baby
Don't fade away

You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels like a world away

Who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And I know that we'll never change
Look I bought your favourite ice cream
I don't wanna see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we're gonna be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where I know I won't forget

And now, who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause were the same
And I know that we'll never change
Look I bought your favorite ice cream
I don't want to see it meltsaway

If you walk out now
I don't know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

I want you to stay here with me

The secret of life is letting go
the secret of love is letting it show
in all that I do
in all that I say
right here in this moment

the power of prayer is in a humble cry
the power of change is in giving my life
and laying it down
down at your feet
right here in this moment

chorus:
take my heart
take my soul
I surrender everything to your control
and let all that is with in me lift up to you and say
I am yours and yours alone
completely

This journey of life is a search for truth
this journey of faith is following you
every step of the way
through the joy and the pain right here in this moment

Chorus

Vamp: right here, right now, and for the rest of my life
Hear me say

Chorus

I am yours and yours alone
Completely

I was walking to Coles today, and looking at the roads, the clouds in the sky, the cars, I cannot believe that I am in Perth. No idea why. It just feels the same. I have not been terribly homesick since I came (and I am shocked by that actually). I do miss my parents and friends but I am just not 'homesick'. Weird. But I think I have 4 ppl to thank that for! The 4 who came over with me :)

Life has fallen into routines. Deeply ingrained ones. Mon to Fri is just wake up, go sch, come home, study, sleep. Wed and Sat go grocery shopping. Hai. But it is tuition free week next week! And we are going Margaret River (hopefully). Itinery's planned, accommodation confirmed, only thing left is the car. YES we are driving down south! How exciting!!!!

Oki very sleepy. Had 8am to 6pm day.

:)

That day, after so many months, somebody's name appeared in my email inbox. I know it was mass mail but I was still happy =)

I finally opened the letter containing my transcript yesterday, and that was because I had to send a copy to Curtin to confirm my place. Why? Firstly, I already know my results. Secondly, opening it means The End. No, the convocation is still 2 months away and has yet to register as the real The End to me. Yes, I am sad. Sad to leave NYP, to exchange my student role for the real thing, that I am no longer 'protected'. Basically I am not ready to be an OT. Sorry Supervising lecturer and supervisor, I told you guys the wrong thing! But, if 3C placement were to hire me, I would be all ready. Sadly, they are already over-staffed.

Weeks have passed and though I have a goal in sight, I am nowhere near in achieving it. Now there's an emerging, and really strong feeling that I will not be able to achieve it. Oki, time to start thinking of another path.

These few days have been torture. Please let it be over soon.

Chopin Piano Sonata No 3, Finale. Presto, non tanto.

It was love at first 'hearing'. I remembered it was Valentine's Day in 2003. My friend and I were walking pass the Esplanade and there was a huge crowd of people queuing up for smt at the corridor of the concert hall. Later on, I found out they were queuing for the signature of the youngest winner of the Warsaw Chopin Competition, who had come to Singapore for his Chopin repertoire. So I bought the CD, and then fell instantly in love :)

Stayed up this morning for the final leg of the F1 Grand Prix. My conclusion after the race: Vettel should really stick with Toro Rosso! He was impressive in the beginning laps till he had to pit at lap 44. Sandwiched between Massa and Alonso, he managed to steer clear of Alonso's attacks and pull off from him and was nearly threatening Massa, till he had to pit. Sianed! I was hoping for a podium finish for him. Imagine him, in his Toro Rosso with last season's engines from Ferrari, managed to record a few fastest lap, managed to be on par with Massa. Bourdais, in the same Toro Rosso, was nowhere near. He is talented so maybe it doesnt matter where he goes. But since he had warmed up to Toro Rosso this season, he should try it again for the next. Who knows, he might rewrite the records book set by Hamiliton to become the youngest world champion! Muahaha.

Very emotionally drained today. Maybe coz of the late night. Maybe coz I did just a little of everything during the weekend. I am tired of chasing the group to ask them to do work. I seriously think some of them has pseudo-apraxia. Lack of initiation, totally. Come on! This is the last sem, it is now or never! It's tempting to just finish up the presentation on my own.

Tuesday: The class had the most sensational gossip talk of the (3) year(s) about someone's endowment. It was really really funny and one of the rare times when the class gel.

Tuesdays and Thursdays: FUN!

Was doing some maths the other day and it just dawned upon me: how did I get myself into this situation!? Oki I know I have promised myself to work harder for each semester, but the results just dun add up. Sadded. Very.

Oki it really gets scary when you hear lecturers telling you that the hospitals, NHs bla bla are already asking them about recruiting us. Then friends telling you they went for interviews. Then hospitals telling your friends that they are recruiting. That's so fast! I haven really decide where I want to work, though I know I would start with a hospital, which must be nearby lol. Not alot of choices.

Hee I noticed that my friends are starting to dress up. Well most of them anyway. Not a lot of heels yet though, i cant manage a pair ahaha. I am guessing it is the calli of erm womenhood. Coz most of us are already 21, feel so old. Or it's the pressure. Or maybe the figure has become endowed (NOT me!)... In 9 years I'll be 30 *shivers at the thought* And in less than 3 months I'll be 22, why do i have to be born in Jan! Talking about birthdays, a conversation went like this at the workplace:

J: This is my sister, she's your age
Me: Oh hello, so which month are you born?
Sis: January
Me: ARH! which day?! (I was thinking no, it wun be the same day as me...)
Sis: 1.....8, u?
Me: 17!
Me and sis: LOL LOL LOL LOL

Then we went onto the we-could-have-lied-beside-each-other-then thing but we were born in different hospitals ahaha.

( It's been ages )

Technology has made it so much easier to connect with friends. Through msn, sms, facebook ... But sometimes, i dunno if what is being said, or typed or keyed in, is really what the other person wants to say. It's different from talking face to face, because people has time to phrase their words, to add in all the smilies in the world. And those at the receiving end, should they really believe what they see? Take for example :) or =); now when i use them, i really do mean it. And they are not just for anybody, only those i actually do care about gets them.

But i am not against technology, duh! In fact i embraced them (for i have fallen into the trap too), but only to a certain extent. My friend commented that i seem really different when talking face to face and through msn. My 'online personality' is bubbly and easy to talk to, while my 'real self' is much more reserved. I thought about it and realised he is right. Online, i can take my time (ie dun need to give immediate replies vs talking face to face) and think of more things to say (because i am online, where i have access to all the info). As a result, I think i have problems talking to certain people face to face o.o

It's a fake, real world, as always.

I feel overwhelmed with emotions. Started last Thursday, after dinner with my cousin. Suddenly felt that we were distanced. I said nothing about it and the night went on, till a question she asked. Not going to disclose the question. But i was saddened that someone i knew my whole life actually asked such a question.

Received a msg at night, by someone i happened to be thinking of. Then came a feeling i hasnt felt for so long. It was scary at first. But i got over it, suffering from aftermath now.

Next came the mountain of work i am about to face, coupled with somebody who doesnt seem to be doing much, really felt like crying.

And suddenly somebody, somehow, managed to pop into my mind. Really miss working tgt. I have never felt so comfortable.

Now, a take care msg from Zah. BOOOOO got my eyes red. Realised i miss her alot.

I dunno how things will go from here. But i really hope for the best for everybody i care about.